Saturday, September 11, 2010
I did it and am out of gas
I went back to my blog of September 11, 2009 and read it. Gail had her last liquid this morning. We turned off all phones and covered the door bell as it bothered her. She wrote her last note on that day which I still have. She wrote, "In the long scheme of things, where am I?" Of course I could not say what I saw but rather I remember saying, "Honey, you will be just fine." Now that is true because in a couple of days she met our Lord which meant she was very fine.
I must have been hurting as I wrote several questions like IF Gail dies, can I be happy? and CAN I be strong enough without my Gail? The answers to those 12 months later is "in time but not for a while" and I do not think I can be strong enough without Gail.
I think I will need to put something in the tub and soak for a while. I do hurt in places not to mention. I think the warm water will feel good. No riding tomorrow.
I think that is enough for today. I am not sure what should come first, a bath or a nap.