For Carmen--A new beginning--A new journey: Good bye February

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Good bye February

I posted this picture just because once again I can see that famous Gail smile. It just seems to be there all the time. It had to have been the love of Jesus coming through her to all around her.
I am not sure this idea is a repeat but for some reason I have been thinking much today about how life is now different. I have and I am sure I will for a long time think about Gail, how much her absence is in me and how empty many parts of my being are now that she is gone. However today I have just had new life on my mind and how challenging it is, will be and has been. Not in a complaining way but in a contemplative way, I have been thinking about how I need to change some of my thinking to accommodate this change. An example was having the men over here on Saturday. In the past if that were to happen Gail and I would compartmentalize things and she would do this and I would do that. Now the WHOLE thing is me and that has been different. It is a whole new mindset that I am not in yet. For last Saturday I needed to think about the house being picked up, the food we would eat, purchasing that food, getting up in time to make it, cleaning up after and the list just seemed to go on and on. Again not to complain but just that whole new things will take a lot of getting used to. As I look towards spring I have flowers on my mind (that was mostly Gail's domain), I have the lawn in mind (that is the same), I have spring clean up and the list just seems endless. I was thinking that maybe my "honey do list" was not so long after all!!!! Anyway that is what was/is on mind today. I don't think there will be any down time in the near future and that maybe is good.
March will not only come in like a lamb, it will come in like a nice little tame lamb, whoppie.

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The first reading at Gail's funeral September 18, 2009

I know of no one who fit this better than Gail

Proverbs 31: 10-31
A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
She brings him good, not harm.
all the days of her life.
She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
She sets about her work vigorously:
her arms are strong for her tasks.
She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her;
Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Well done good and faithful servant, your praise is much and your reward is to be with God forever.

Our Story

Our story begin in 1951, when Carmen was 4 and Gail was 5! We met as our parents were at a camera club. Fast forward--Carmen begin to attend grade school in town in 1957, the same school that Gail went to. Fast forward--We had our first date in the winter of 1964 in Gail's senior year of high school. Again--we were married June 1st of 1968. We moved to St. Paul in October of 1977 and lived at 2094 Niles Ave until Gail's death September 14 of 2009.
Gail first breast cancer was found in October of 2003. After surgery, chemo, radiation and infusions for a year she felt well and we lived life in our normal mode. Carmen retired in June of 2007 and shortly after that we quit doing the paper route as well. In the fall of 2007 we went on our dream vacation. We camped for 7 weeks in Prince Edward Island and Nova Scotia and in the New England states. Sleeping in our truck and eating over an open fire we felt that we had experienced heaven. Then in January of 2008 we spent 3 weeks in Hawaii with friends and again had so much fun. In the fall of 2008 we did much work on the outside of the house and we were so excited to enter 2009 with big plans and dreams. In January Gail was diagnosed with new cancer. For the next 7 1/2 months we prayed, changed our life style, laughed and cried often. As the end of Gail's life drew near she was peaceful and family cared for her at home until she met Jesus. It was a journey that was wonderful, exciting, blessed, full of life and full of love but of course it was too short. Gail is so missed but I know she is in a better place so my journey must continue on without my true love.
I enter a new decade as the "I" that I never wanted to be but I have hope. Hope of things not experienced and hope that life will again, in 2010, become something that I look forward to each morning. My hope is based on our Lord who gives all, who is all and who gives love to all who believe. I enter this new decade with so many questions and so few answers but with faith that all will be well.

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Sunday, February 28, 2010

Good bye February

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The first reading at Gail's funeral September 18, 2009

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