This morning I live for the morning that there will be joy. I can put a hundred words on paper or a hundred thoughts down but the bottom line is today I am sad. I know Gail is happy and in a wonderful place, I know that God is so near that it is like camp. I can feel him, I can hear him, I can taste him and almost see him. For that I am so thankful but for some reason this Sunday is a sad day. Very close to the surface are tears and thoughts of Gail. She is so close yet out of reach, so real yet not in my presence and so alive in my mind yet of course not alive on earth.
In the last 48 hours I have had in-laws here and family here and it has been good but yet Gail is not here and for that my spirit is sad and my body aches for her presence. I sense that I am becoming impatient so Lord please grant me your grace and your patience to endure and live life to the fullest until joy once again registers in my heart.