One more note for the day. I could not sit at home too long as way too many thoughts would go through my mind as I sat. So I put my merrell slip on shoes, my poly longjohns, my wintergreen fleece pants and my camp hooded sweatshirt to go riding and looking. I ended up at the Galleria in Edina, never been there before and I would say may never go there again. A tad on the upper side I would say. I saw mostly coach purses, leather or fur coats, skinny tight pants with bulges in the back. I think those bulges were wallets full of money!!!! Then any store I went into there would be some nice pretty lady come up to me and ask how I was. I would say I was fine but what I really wanted to do was shout in her face, "I am sad because we lost our beloved Gail". Of course I would never do that but it would have made me feel better!!!!!
I missed the birthday cards that Gail usually would get. I knew they would not come but I did miss seeing them come in the mail and being so proud of my Gail that so many would send her cards. I also missed dreaming about what I could get her. Often I would dream and then I would give her a kiss and hug and just say happy birthday. Gifts would come at any time of the year but usually not on birthdays or special occasions.
I have been thinking a lot today about how I should use my time and I may do something like Carmen's Creative Carpentry and make a few special pieces of furniture each year and then sell them for MUCH money---right!!!! No the making is kind of serious, the MUCH money is a pipe dream which is not realistic nor important. To start with I have an idea for a wall in the den that I think I may start with, can't tell now but I may do something interesting. We can not allow life to get dull and boring.