For Carmen--A new beginning--A new journey: Chance??

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Chance??

I went to bed early, about 10:30 then woke up around mid-night and could not get back to sleep. Thought I would blog as I have had some things on my mind for the last couple of weeks.
I have thought much about what I am going to say. I thought perhaps it would be best unsaid at this time but I have been transparent in many cases so why not now!
I have been taking Wallace for walks along the river for the last month or so. About three weeks ago I saw this dog that looked like a labradoodle. About the third day I saw it I just had to stop and ask the lady if it was. She said it was and it (Bennie) was the most wonderful dog. That was it and I went on my way. I would say that I have seen her most days as I walk Wallace and now we always stop to chat. Anyway, not to be too long here but she is really nice. It turns out she lives on Pinehurst in the Highland area and she lost her husband about 2 years ago. She is retired from 3M and lives alone. I went on a bike ride Tuesday night and she was working in her yard so I stopped and talked for a bit. Her house looks really nice. She enjoys knitting, she volunteers at several places, she travels a lot and also helps with her grandchildren some. Does not sound like she is into her church much.
I don't know, she seems almost too nice to be real and I am asking myself what should I do now?? She did ask me if I was interested in coming over for coffee some afternoon. I said I would have to check what I had going on but that I would get back to her. I have not called her yet because I am not sure what I should do. It would be fun to get to know her better and of course it is always nice to be with people. I actually did not know that about myself but have found that I don't like to be alone. I thought about asking the kids what they thought and then I said to myself here I go acting in the same way as when Gail was here. I ALWAYS asked her before I did anything but I really don't think the kids are in that place in my life so...

April Fools!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did you believe??????
I hope my little story does not offend anyone. I feel that being almost 8 months beyond LWG (life with Gail) I need to insert some humor in my life. I have met the same number of women the last several months as the number of million dollar checks I have waiting to be cashed!!!!! Have a great April Fools Day and make sure you're not the Fool but rather the Fooler.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...: Carmen;
Are you sure ya' don't have a bit o' the Irish in ya' now Carmen? I sense a bit o' the blarney in ye now!
Good one Carmen...you had me hooked. :)
Steve; April 1, 2010 at 3:21 AM
Anonymous said...: Carmen -
I couldn't stop giggling because I thought you were talking about Wallace meeting a nice lady dog..; April 1, 2010 at 11:06 PM
Tom Bowar said...: Carmen, you really had me going there...; April 2, 2010 at 1:21 PM

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The first reading at Gail's funeral September 18, 2009

I know of no one who fit this better than Gail

Proverbs 31: 10-31
A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
She brings him good, not harm.
all the days of her life.
She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
She sets about her work vigorously:
her arms are strong for her tasks.
She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her;
Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Well done good and faithful servant, your praise is much and your reward is to be with God forever.

Our Story

Our story begin in 1951, when Carmen was 4 and Gail was 5! We met as our parents were at a camera club. Fast forward--Carmen begin to attend grade school in town in 1957, the same school that Gail went to. Fast forward--We had our first date in the winter of 1964 in Gail's senior year of high school. Again--we were married June 1st of 1968. We moved to St. Paul in October of 1977 and lived at 2094 Niles Ave until Gail's death September 14 of 2009.
Gail first breast cancer was found in October of 2003. After surgery, chemo, radiation and infusions for a year she felt well and we lived life in our normal mode. Carmen retired in June of 2007 and shortly after that we quit doing the paper route as well. In the fall of 2007 we went on our dream vacation. We camped for 7 weeks in Prince Edward Island and Nova Scotia and in the New England states. Sleeping in our truck and eating over an open fire we felt that we had experienced heaven. Then in January of 2008 we spent 3 weeks in Hawaii with friends and again had so much fun. In the fall of 2008 we did much work on the outside of the house and we were so excited to enter 2009 with big plans and dreams. In January Gail was diagnosed with new cancer. For the next 7 1/2 months we prayed, changed our life style, laughed and cried often. As the end of Gail's life drew near she was peaceful and family cared for her at home until she met Jesus. It was a journey that was wonderful, exciting, blessed, full of life and full of love but of course it was too short. Gail is so missed but I know she is in a better place so my journey must continue on without my true love.
I enter a new decade as the "I" that I never wanted to be but I have hope. Hope of things not experienced and hope that life will again, in 2010, become something that I look forward to each morning. My hope is based on our Lord who gives all, who is all and who gives love to all who believe. I enter this new decade with so many questions and so few answers but with faith that all will be well.

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Thursday, April 1, 2010

Chance??

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The first reading at Gail's funeral September 18, 2009

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