For Carmen--A new beginning--A new journey: The wheels

Thursday, April 29, 2010

The wheels

The new wheels. As I was thinking today I realized this is the first car that I have bought. Before we were married I only had a bike and a motorcycle and when we got married Gail had a car. Then for the next years of course it was our car when ever we bought so here I am at the age of 63 buying my first car so to speak.
A rather slow day. We did have meditations this morning and then Travis and I met for breakfast. I went on a walk after that but from 11:00 to now I did not one stitch of work.
I did do a first. It was sad but I got through it. Gail and I often would go down to a picnic place on the Mississippi River called hidden falls. Well I stopped at the store, just like Gail and I would do and got food---I then headed down to hidden falls for my picnic. I, myself and me were all there. No Gail and really no fun but I got through it and I may do it again sometime. I should look up the word picnic but I think it may imply 2 or more people!!! Regardless I did it and the "first" is over with. I should have kept a log of all the picnics we went on from the time we were married. I know there were 100's and maybe 1000's.
I find that I have to force myself to do things and then after the first time it is not so difficult. I have been in kind of a mini funk this week and it would be so easy to stay home and isolate oneself from the world. Perhaps I did that in a very small way this afternoon but 1/2 day of it is not so bad. I just need to be careful to not do that toooooo much.
I did not sleep well at all last night. I was so pleased as it seemed my sleeping problems were behind me and perhaps they are. I hope last night was just last night and not a pattern so will see tonight.
I can not say enough about the weather, the trees etc. The sight and the smell of the blossoms is almost intoxicating.
Now that I fixed my internet I was even able to post some pictures on Facebook. That was surprising. I do not look at it very much but I had tried to post pictures in the past and I would get kicked off internet.
I got some dishes done today. I had not washed dishes all week and there were not too many but nice to get some of them done. Certainly makes the kitchen look better.
I am debating if I should go in the shop tonight or read a book. I may toss a coin!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...: Nice wheels!! Way to go!
I looked up picnic and it indicates more than one person but I've had picnics by myself and had some soul searching, eye opening conversations. Even though you don't choose to have them by yourself a picnic is a good thing.
Helen; April 30, 2010 at 11:04 PM

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The first reading at Gail's funeral September 18, 2009

I know of no one who fit this better than Gail

Proverbs 31: 10-31
A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
She brings him good, not harm.
all the days of her life.
She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
She sets about her work vigorously:
her arms are strong for her tasks.
She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her;
Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Well done good and faithful servant, your praise is much and your reward is to be with God forever.

Our Story

Our story begin in 1951, when Carmen was 4 and Gail was 5! We met as our parents were at a camera club. Fast forward--Carmen begin to attend grade school in town in 1957, the same school that Gail went to. Fast forward--We had our first date in the winter of 1964 in Gail's senior year of high school. Again--we were married June 1st of 1968. We moved to St. Paul in October of 1977 and lived at 2094 Niles Ave until Gail's death September 14 of 2009.
Gail first breast cancer was found in October of 2003. After surgery, chemo, radiation and infusions for a year she felt well and we lived life in our normal mode. Carmen retired in June of 2007 and shortly after that we quit doing the paper route as well. In the fall of 2007 we went on our dream vacation. We camped for 7 weeks in Prince Edward Island and Nova Scotia and in the New England states. Sleeping in our truck and eating over an open fire we felt that we had experienced heaven. Then in January of 2008 we spent 3 weeks in Hawaii with friends and again had so much fun. In the fall of 2008 we did much work on the outside of the house and we were so excited to enter 2009 with big plans and dreams. In January Gail was diagnosed with new cancer. For the next 7 1/2 months we prayed, changed our life style, laughed and cried often. As the end of Gail's life drew near she was peaceful and family cared for her at home until she met Jesus. It was a journey that was wonderful, exciting, blessed, full of life and full of love but of course it was too short. Gail is so missed but I know she is in a better place so my journey must continue on without my true love.
I enter a new decade as the "I" that I never wanted to be but I have hope. Hope of things not experienced and hope that life will again, in 2010, become something that I look forward to each morning. My hope is based on our Lord who gives all, who is all and who gives love to all who believe. I enter this new decade with so many questions and so few answers but with faith that all will be well.

For Carmen--A new beginning--A new journey

Thursday, April 29, 2010

The wheels

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The first reading at Gail's funeral September 18, 2009

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