For Carmen--A new beginning--A new journey: Don't know if Gail was right.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Don't know if Gail was right.

Happy birthday Faustina, can't wait until you party today.
Gail often accused me of being unrealistic, of not seeing the entire picture. I don't know if she was right or not. I had a good day and actually perhaps a few consecutively.
I started the day with a 7:00 AM meeting and then spent an hour at home with Jerry W. After that I cut some flowers from Susan down the street and brought them to Gail. I drove home in the rain but a short time later the sun came out, the temp went up and I spent the entire day working in the shop and garage until dark. When I am able to have a day like that and then it was followed by the last couple of days I tend to say, "Lord, maybe you are ready for me to become more real again!" Just maybe I can begin to compile and file those thousands and thousands of happy memories in the right place and begin to live the life of NOW. I still tend to think of how Gail is not here, she will not be here tomorrow and not next week either. So I ask the Lord what does that mean? He has not given me much of an answer yet but I know he will. Maybe I am coming to the end of the tunnel but then Gail did say I was the eternal optimist.
We get to celebrate Faustina's birthday tomorrow. The party starts at 12:30 and the fun starts at the same time.
Oh my goodness. It is so late and I thought I was tired at 11:00 but then I thought I am not sure if Mark and Mary need to be picked up at midnight tonight or tomorrow. I always thought it was Sunday at midnight and I guess I was correct as no call tonight so I had better try to get some sleep.

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Anonymous said...: Hope you had a great time with Faustina on her birthday today. I bet she enjoyed it. You need a big calender or notepad and make yourself notes so you don't get things confused! As we get older we forget things that aren't written down, I've got a head start on that one. Glad to hear you're having better days. The good memories will be there but it's fun creating new ones as well.Writing new chapters in one's book of life is exciting.
Helen; May 23, 2010 at 9:38 PM

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The first reading at Gail's funeral September 18, 2009

I know of no one who fit this better than Gail

Proverbs 31: 10-31
A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
She brings him good, not harm.
all the days of her life.
She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
She sets about her work vigorously:
her arms are strong for her tasks.
She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her;
Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Well done good and faithful servant, your praise is much and your reward is to be with God forever.

Our Story

Our story begin in 1951, when Carmen was 4 and Gail was 5! We met as our parents were at a camera club. Fast forward--Carmen begin to attend grade school in town in 1957, the same school that Gail went to. Fast forward--We had our first date in the winter of 1964 in Gail's senior year of high school. Again--we were married June 1st of 1968. We moved to St. Paul in October of 1977 and lived at 2094 Niles Ave until Gail's death September 14 of 2009.
Gail first breast cancer was found in October of 2003. After surgery, chemo, radiation and infusions for a year she felt well and we lived life in our normal mode. Carmen retired in June of 2007 and shortly after that we quit doing the paper route as well. In the fall of 2007 we went on our dream vacation. We camped for 7 weeks in Prince Edward Island and Nova Scotia and in the New England states. Sleeping in our truck and eating over an open fire we felt that we had experienced heaven. Then in January of 2008 we spent 3 weeks in Hawaii with friends and again had so much fun. In the fall of 2008 we did much work on the outside of the house and we were so excited to enter 2009 with big plans and dreams. In January Gail was diagnosed with new cancer. For the next 7 1/2 months we prayed, changed our life style, laughed and cried often. As the end of Gail's life drew near she was peaceful and family cared for her at home until she met Jesus. It was a journey that was wonderful, exciting, blessed, full of life and full of love but of course it was too short. Gail is so missed but I know she is in a better place so my journey must continue on without my true love.
I enter a new decade as the "I" that I never wanted to be but I have hope. Hope of things not experienced and hope that life will again, in 2010, become something that I look forward to each morning. My hope is based on our Lord who gives all, who is all and who gives love to all who believe. I enter this new decade with so many questions and so few answers but with faith that all will be well.

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Sunday, May 23, 2010

Don't know if Gail was right.

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The first reading at Gail's funeral September 18, 2009

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