We are now into 2010 and I have found that I have new ways to see if my day is starting out well. Some of those ways are:
- Are the dishes washed??
- Is there clean underwear in my dresser??
- Is the floor vaccumed??
- Is the dog poop picked up??
- Are the clothes washed??
- Did we go for a walk??
- Will we do anything together??
- Do we need to do anything around the house??
- Do I need to get anything for Gail
I do need to wash some dishes and then cut up some veggies that I will bring to Al/Debs. I will meet David O this evening for a beer after the party. We will meet at the Dubliner which I have never been to.
I called grandma S yesterday but she is feeling under the weather and could hardly talk. I could not understand her so will try to call her in a few days.
I think that tomorrow most of the Christmas things will be packed up and put away. Gail and I always left them up for most of January but this year I am ready to move on into the new year and leave Christmas to the memories.
As I sit here this morning the outside temp reads -13.5. A bit chilly I would say. I do want to go for a walk before I leave for the party but I will see. I know that Gail would be ready to bundle up and take off...... I may put on my poly underwear after dishes and pretend Gail is at my side as I walk up to the village and back.
I am unbelievable as I can make a mess in the house faster than anybody in the world I think. I wonder if there is a way to record that on any kind of record? It seems that for every project I try to undertake there is at least equal time in clean up. I finished my calendar yesterday and now I have paper, pictures, cutters, frames and you name it and it is laying around the house. Maybe I can pick up some things before I leave.
Before I sign off I could mention that I miss Gail but I think I say that everyday and by now the whole world probably knows it. Nothing new there I guess. Actually the whole world does not know it. I have found that I have so so much support, so much love is given to me but in the end losing a loved one is much about a person going through sadness and loneliness alone. I don't mean alone in the sense of physical but I mean that in one's heart. I have come to really appreciate the "heart connection" that two people establish and feed off of in the couple relationship. It has to be something that a person experiences to understand.