For Carmen--A new beginning--A new journey: A quiet and peaceful day

Friday, January 1, 2010

A quiet and peaceful day

It has been a quiet and peaceful day. I took a walk, I did not drive any place, I did not spend any money and I did much thinking. I am thankful I could start the new year in this fashion.

Travis came over for a time and that was really nice. He did some more work on the snow fort in front.

Some of the things I took to heart from people who have passed on are:

Brother Ronald--he had a great zeal for life, I could be better at that
Sister Janet--she was such a domestic homemaker and care giver of her family, I could love my family more
My grandma and grandma--I loved to visit them and spend time with them, I hope my grandchildren do the same
Charlie--he loved the Word and preached it, I could be a better witness for Christ.
Mark Kohler--He was so honest, I could improve on that
Grandpa Saunders--He was so loyal to family and his farm, I could do better in that area
Deanne--She was so happy, so bubbly, I could be happier towards people and smile more.
Gail--I can not say enough about Gail and I have said so much and will say more in the future so will not say much here except I will try to be more selfless in my love and service.

The first day of the new year has brought a kind of dullness to realities in my life. Perhaps it is a sign I can move forward a bit, I do not know. It has been close to 1/3 of a year now which seems impossible but it is true. I think it is time for me to put more time and effort into who I am and what should I do. I can now put Christmas and Gail's birthday behind me. I now want to concentrate on being a better person and moving on with my life. I miss Gail so much but I do know it will take more time for that to heal more but I do feel that it is now time to try and be more positive, more forward looking and try to move on a bit. I do not understand why 2009 brought all the things it did but questioning it does nothing for me so in my thoughts and in my writing I will try my best to be postive and upbuilding.
I think I need to write more about life, about dreams, about purpose and about doing God's will in my life. I hope I can be successful with serving our Lord.
I am looking forward to Al/Deb party tomorrow. I don't think I will play games but I it will be good to see people and visit.

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The first reading at Gail's funeral September 18, 2009

I know of no one who fit this better than Gail

Proverbs 31: 10-31
A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
She brings him good, not harm.
all the days of her life.
She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
She sets about her work vigorously:
her arms are strong for her tasks.
She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her;
Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Well done good and faithful servant, your praise is much and your reward is to be with God forever.

Our Story

Our story begin in 1951, when Carmen was 4 and Gail was 5! We met as our parents were at a camera club. Fast forward--Carmen begin to attend grade school in town in 1957, the same school that Gail went to. Fast forward--We had our first date in the winter of 1964 in Gail's senior year of high school. Again--we were married June 1st of 1968. We moved to St. Paul in October of 1977 and lived at 2094 Niles Ave until Gail's death September 14 of 2009.
Gail first breast cancer was found in October of 2003. After surgery, chemo, radiation and infusions for a year she felt well and we lived life in our normal mode. Carmen retired in June of 2007 and shortly after that we quit doing the paper route as well. In the fall of 2007 we went on our dream vacation. We camped for 7 weeks in Prince Edward Island and Nova Scotia and in the New England states. Sleeping in our truck and eating over an open fire we felt that we had experienced heaven. Then in January of 2008 we spent 3 weeks in Hawaii with friends and again had so much fun. In the fall of 2008 we did much work on the outside of the house and we were so excited to enter 2009 with big plans and dreams. In January Gail was diagnosed with new cancer. For the next 7 1/2 months we prayed, changed our life style, laughed and cried often. As the end of Gail's life drew near she was peaceful and family cared for her at home until she met Jesus. It was a journey that was wonderful, exciting, blessed, full of life and full of love but of course it was too short. Gail is so missed but I know she is in a better place so my journey must continue on without my true love.
I enter a new decade as the "I" that I never wanted to be but I have hope. Hope of things not experienced and hope that life will again, in 2010, become something that I look forward to each morning. My hope is based on our Lord who gives all, who is all and who gives love to all who believe. I enter this new decade with so many questions and so few answers but with faith that all will be well.

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Friday, January 1, 2010

A quiet and peaceful day

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The first reading at Gail's funeral September 18, 2009

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